E ceva straniu cu mine. Ma rog, cu toata lumea dar zic despre scris. Nu pot sa spun in engleza ce spun in romaneste si viceversa. Sau mai degraba tot ce tine de profesie este ireconciliabil in engleza, tot ce tine de visare este in romaneste. Mare town meeting ieri pentru ca chief executive officer sa ne spuna care este starea natiunii, cat suntem de buni, cum vrea sa ne dea din nou pensie si bonusuri, incheie cu un sumar al starii concurentei si indemnuri sa nu destupam sampania inca, sa ne concentram obsesiv pe « executie »; ne invita sa ii punem intrebari si dau sa intreb ceva si ma razgadesc, ia altcineva microfonul si intreaba, dupa vreo cinci intrebari sunt gata sa pun intrebarea, am intors-o pe toate partile, este de tactica, este de competenta lui, poate nu si de interes general numai ca intre timp cele 5 intrebari, toate dintr-o anumita zona (HR) simt eu ca au ingustat interesul multimii la doar asta : ce ne da, cand ne da, bani, vacanta, promotii, laptopuri, aprobari sa calatorim, garantia ca nu vor mai fi concedieri. Si tac, am ratat « momentul ». Ma gandesc sa nu uit sa ii spun Margicii morala, ma intorc in birou si o scriu si ma gandesc ca ar fi trebuit sa i-o las pe blog, numai ca in romaneste ar trebui spus cu totul altfel si asa de doi bani cum este, gandul asta este totusi o tulburare... Dar notitza Lawrenciana :

When we ought to start talking we ought to do so on the first cue, subliminal cue, or else, 90% of the audience is gone on the account of “if he’s not sure he should open it how could I”? How could they be sure you should have opened it/ they should have listened?!! And then the first cue is always hot and burns a little and when they cut through, through what you put out for them when you start talking, they may find it just half baked. And they are of course not completely wrong (save the rounding by underestimation which is default even for those who usually consider the glass is half full). That you know: what you say on the first cue is not polished. It is weighty, it is lumpy and just qualitatively will not suite 100% of the audience either. Some of the audience would excuse themselves on the account of “this sauce is too lumpy for my taste”. But some will say “smells nice and hot and palatable, let me dip my ideas into your sauce and see if this food for thought agrees with that belly of mine full of personal views”. And then a lot of them will barf it right out in quite a spectacular way if they could and then finally with some of them your sauce will agree. But again, there will always be the ones that coldly drop out, the ones that stick around to see how it goes but just pass the sauce pan: they’d “rather try it later on” to never really do and the ones that do try it and get sick and protest it... and all that, my dear “I will have all or nothing”, is just a great incentive to work hard on yourself, to soften, to loosen up, to learn to get halved things and better halved and halved again and grow them full, so big that they could fill an entire Universe.